Anxiety

Anxiety

I may not know what tomorrow holds, but I know Who holds tomorrow.

With everything going on in my life at this time it is understandable that there may be some anxiety. After my wife, Olga was deported I was wondering how long would she be gone. When the U.S. Embassy barred her from re-entering the U.S. for 5 years, I became numb.

Last November my employer announced that they were going to have a RIF (reduction in force). I thought nothing about this as I have been with the company for over 5 years and the company has quite a bit of money invested in operators. When the new organization chart came out early in the year I started to wonder how safe I was. At that time I was the bubble boy, meaning anyone hired before me was safe and the cuts would start with me.

By the time the cuts came, I was safe and my job was safe or at least I thought it was. On June 7^th the company announced that they would close the plant down. Now I started to see fear in everyone who had been safe before during the previous RIF. Resumes were flying out, people were going to interviews, friends were listing and selling their homes and I wondered what do I do?

The other day at work they announced the new organization chart and only 25 operators will be safe. One of my co-workers had an anxiety attack and had to go to the hospital. I thought about how sad it is for so many to not know how they are going to make their house payments, pay for their children’s college, and other expenses.

I was always under the impression after we hired the additional lawyer that my wife’s case would be heard in the courts in July but I found out that even though the case would be filed in July the Government would have 10 days to respond, then the court can wait up to a few months before acting. I did not want to sell the family home while my daughter and wife were out of the country. I wanted to have a place we were all comfortable with to have us reunited in. 

“Be anxious for nothing, but in all things by prayer and supplications let your request be known to God, and the peace of God that surpasses all understanding will guard your heart and mind.” When I became a Christian in 1994, I used to write down verses on cards to memorize. The above was one I memorized many years ago and it came back to me at a time I needed it.

I am not sure what I will do next week but I have typed up some resumes and applied at a couple of Nuclear Plants in Texas and Arizona. I will attend a job fair next Thursday and see what they have to offer. I am also looking for jobs in sales and keeping my options open for whatever God brings my way.